Some people know lots about me, others not so much, very few know exactly what my forty four years in this world has been like.
This week a business colleague told me that people admire me and look up to me, which I was completely shocked by as there is nothing extraordinary about me, I am just me.
I have in my lifetime lived through some pretty horrible experiences but I always have and always will maintain that sadly there are people who have been through much worse.
I refuse to be thought of as a victim.
Yes domestic violence, emotional & mental abuse in relationships is something I never want to be involved in again and is the very reason I stay resolutely single. With the exception of a few very brief dalliances I am now into my tenth year of being a lone parent.
Life will always throw curve balls my way, in fact they are more like great big mountains of shit to be honest. But I have developed an inner strength & resilience to handling this stuff, because what other choice is there.
I have crumbled beyond recognition in the past & I have struggled to cope more times than I can remember. I also still have good & bad days, like we all do. It has taken many years for me to regain my self belief & confidence and it is still in constant progress as I battle with the nagging ‘I’ll never be good enough’ bollocks that often overwhelms me.
I have discovered that I am much better at doing things to help other people than I am myself, which is probably one of the reason I love what I do within my business so much.
Both of my children have witnessed, seen, heard & been subjected to things which no mother wants their babies to experience. It was my children that always gave me the courage to make our lives a safer and happier place.
I want them to know that you can achieve anything you want to in life, it is for them that I work so hard at continually trying to make our lives better.Being self employed is not an easy path to tread, but being employed in a job would be impossible for me.
With two children who both have their own set of very unique additional needs the ability to be there when they need me most is of paramount importance in our little family unit.
Working is my respite from the difficult stuff that goes on daily in my life and I have always had a good work ethic (15 years in retail management does that to a person!)
The combination of throwing myself into my business ventures, wanting to help people, my life experiences and the desire to instill good values into my children is all fantastic motivation to keep going when things get tough.
Since lock down began I have been working harder than ever from home. I have continued to help people save money on their household bills through my UW business. During this period I have put over £4000 back into peoples pockets, with some families saving over £100 a month.
It’s such a wonderful feeling to be able to provide such welcome financial relief to people and is why I love to share what I do with as many individuals as possible.
I’m three years into this business now and although I’m far from perfect I wanted to do something to show others who may need to overcome some battles how they too can incorporate a business like this into their lives and make it work for them.
So I wrote an online course & and eBook to help people (there’s also paperback and kindle versions kicking around on Amazon). My aim was to help at least one person, and despite only telling 4 people about it so far, my goal has been achieved. I haven’t felt confident enough to publicly share what I have created as those pesky ‘you’re not good enough’ goblins start whispering into my ears.
But a wise lady told me today that I should be proud of what I have accomplished in all areas of my life and that I should stand tall (not easy when you’re 5ft 2) and shout about my achievements. She said they will undoubtedly help others who need to hear that despite whatever adversity and shit storms are whirling around we all have the power to wash it all away and bounce back stronger than ever.
And helping people gives me happiness, so here I am.
Standing as tall and proud as I can and sticking two fingers up to those voices that say ‘who do you think you are’.
Because I am just me, getting on with my life, being a decent human, sharing what I believe in and helping others.